One of the rules that I follow in life is to never stop something when it goes wrong. I also tell myself to not change who you are just to please someone else. These two sayings are very important to me, because they have come up in the last couple of months.
One week ago was the blood drive. I have donated before, but this time I couldn’t donate. My arm had gotten pretty big right after the needle went in. They had to stop, and she told me that it would look like someone had beaten my arm with a bat and that it would change colors. I honestly didn’t believe her for the first day or two, because it wasn’t that badly bruised. Then Sunday came around and there I look down at my arm. I see a massive bruise… Just because something went wrong, doesn’t mean that I’m never going to donate again. You hear some stories of people giving up because one thing wrong, and this should not be the case. You had this idea before, but when it goes wrong it goes away.
The past 3-4 months have been really hard for me. I don’t want to go into great detail, but making new friends, keeping the friends that you already have and on top of that school starting, was a struggle. It is still a great struggle today, but I have tried my hardest to keep my head up during tough times. I have tried so hard to be myself, and not to sink in to please others. There were times that I had sunk in and it was 10 times harder to get out of it. I now look at it as if they can’t handle who I really am, then they can leave. They are the ones with their problems, and I shouldn’t have to change who I am to satisfy their needs. I am somewhat grateful for all of this, because it has given me experience that I will need later on in my life.